The Act of Living

As I set off to journey to an unknown world, I am left indifferent.No emotional farewells and goodbyes, no longing pangs filled with the sorrow brought on so many times by the separation of one from the known and comfortable.No such feelings cling relentlessly to the hamstring of my heart, I simply got on the wings that carried me away to an unknown and unfamiliar world.The capsule transporting me, as cold as my calmly beating heart.

Having no roots does that to you,it makes it easy to cut loose the ties that bind you to the place of present,the place where bonds resemble the fleeting comfort of a mistress and when your time is over with her,to cut her loose and hinge yourself to a new mistress,she holding her own promises.

The journey allowed me to submerge into my own thoughts of a life I had hardly expected to happen to me.I though about many things and soon I was lost in the world of the dreamer in me and to get loose from her grip is no easy task.The promise she holds will leave me submerged in her bosom for eternity and a cold spill of reality only keeps me momentarily lucid...I love her, the dreamer me,she makes everything seem possible,but at the same time I feel her scorn towards me,the truth that her dreams are always better than my reality.Such trickery she plays on my mind yet I am attracted to her like a drug,the high too strong to resist,reality the rehab I don't want to stay in.Her dreams are enticing,filled with promise that might spill into my reality,but the wings that carry me soon wake me from my immortal slumber.

I am not too disappointed to wake from my dreams, there is promise to have in "new starts",the hope of becoming something you could never be because fear kept you captive.Yes its freedom to be the author of a new chapter,its a new scene, a new act and you can both write and direct it...the new lets you hold the pen of life just for a little while and you get the opportunity to write the opening scene of the next act in your life. Don't be deluded to think that life will make you write all of it,she is a jealous mistress and wont let you hold that pen for long.But in that brief moment you get to place the essence of your being into motion ,to orchestrate a mighty chapter that will be echoed in the halls of history,to ride on the wings of glory, Yes there is freedom in the new,however its is not without its own fears and doubts.

But deep within me I know that something extraordinary will happen this year,something I never expected to happen,a moment that will echo truth in my life....I am not one for deep sentiments,although it may sound like it at times,but there is truth to this "feeling",this "knowing",this "expecting".Its a whisper so profound , a promise from His heart to mine.