The Gift of Vulnerability
I think myself to be rather strong. As friendly and open as I appear to be, I am not very good with sharing things that are important to me. It takes a lot for me to open up about things in my heart and my life. I never usually share anything until I have pondered long and hard about what, if any, details I will share. My need to keep all these things to myself arises from a fear of being vulnerable. I simply hate it. I hate how it feels to share your most deepest darkest issues with people, especially those who know me best. It makes me feel weak and out of control of my own life. It makes me feel like I have no clue what I am doing in world where everyone seems to have it all figured out. I feel especially so with people in my church community, people I have shared many good times with. To share my trials and struggles before I have overcome them, makes me feel like my faith is not strong enough to have kept me away from trouble in the first place. I guess I seem to have fo...
