When LOVE takes over

For those who have read my blog before might remember that a few months ago I wrote a blog titled "When the fire is lost" .When I was going through that time in my life I was in a very hard place.At times I wondered if it would ever end,if I would make it and if God knew my pain.It was very hard for me to keep my faith and it hung on a string.

So many times I was tempted to throw in the towel and just give up on my walk of faith. I had gone so far down the wrong path that I had made terrible mistakes that can never be undone.Through that season (for it was only a season,albeit a long one) I had almost completely lost myself.I tired so many things to reconnect with God but I was dead on the inside.I cried and prayed before God,but at the same time my heart was not really in it.A numbness had come over me and no matter how hard I tried I could simply not connect with God.I was too proud to admit how low I had fell so I tried hard to keep up appearances.

And than God happened,like a rushing wind He turned my whole life up side down or more like right side up.See when God comes to clean and heal and restores He can do it in a moment.I had all but given up on ever connecting with Him again,I felt so far gone, I was in a physical and spiritual wilderness and everything in me felt dead.However a very small part of me held on to hope,hope that one day it will all end.I do not despise the season I was in it has made me a more compassionate person and burned the religion right out of me.I know my Father would have rather protected me from some of those hurts I went through ,but I was determined to hold on to so many things that disconnected me from God and until I let go God could not move in my life.

But my Father is not one to give up on His flock,even though I was hell bend on being rebellious and out of control ,He was heaven bend on bringing me home,to heal the very things that was driving me into rebellion.God took me out of the place that was bringing me death in the most amazing way,it all happened almost so instantly.He placed me in a place where I could only hear His voice and receive His healing and boy what a journey it has been. I can barely breath so breath taking is His love for us.

Oh wow God has healed,restored ,doubled my portion.He has set a new flame in my heart filled with a hunger for Him,a new found love for His people,a deep desire to serve and be His hands and feet.A spiritual boldness I have never had before.He is breaking every wall of sin in my life and thou it is not always pleasant it is deeply liberating,Oh WOW His love has overcome my very soul.I am filled with joy so deep it pours out as rivers of water from my belly.

God did not only encounter me for my sake only,His love has awaken a passion to shake this nation into revival, to be His vessel, His voice, His heart to show love.Words simply fail to share what God is doing in my life.And I have no deeper desire than to please Him.

My prayer is that I will have more of Him so I can pour it out into the world.I do not want any blessing from God if I will use it for selfish reasons.I pray that those that are in the wilderness will be awaken by the Spirit of God,to be healed and restored.That an awakening will sweep this earth like never before,that a boldness for the gospel will be birthed in the church,and that His people will have a love so deep for others that they will come to know Him.

Love is HERE and love is taking over...its a revival!