Wild Horses

It has been a while since I posted anything, but life and work has just been sooo busy of late.It is the busyness of life that inspired this post (yes something always inspires me to write).

Work has been very busy of late and it has left me rather stressed and overwhelmed.I am constantly thinking of work even when I am at home.This leaves me anxious as I just cant seem to switch off long enough to calm down and re-energize for the next hectic day.

My crazy and anxious thoughts reminded me of wild horses running in all directions without no real purpose.When ones thoughts run so wild it starts to infect every part of ones life.My inability to reign my thoughts in and take things as they come almost made me want to quit!I became so overwhelmed that I was one big ball of nerves.

My nerves led to anxiety which eventually caused mood swings.Stress is not always the reason I have wild horses running in my head,I tend to always be thinking of something and getting worked up about it.So in my desperation I decided to tell my faith buddies of my plans to quit,and of course they talked sense back into me.I felt that God was giving me more than I can handle and I could not understand why for three years I just cant seem to get a break.I move from one hill to the next, constantly fighting one or another battle.

I prayed,it was a very unfocused and stressed induced prayer,but I prayed.I blabbed whatever frustrations I had in the most incoherent manner.I didn't feel better after praying but all that mattered was that I had come to God's feet and laid down my worries.As I continued my night  more anxious and upset than before God answered me.He did not take my anxiety away ,He did not tell me that tomorrow everything will be better,He simply said that this is an opportunity for me to learn how to control my thoughts and my anxiety.See even if God gave me peace at that moment I would not have solved my problem in the long run.

My Father loves me too much to leave me the same way he found me,but He is also not a God off inefficient solutions.When He fixes something he goes back to the very root to pull it out of our lives.God is using the current situation I am in to fix something I have been battling with for a long while now.

I have to learn to take control of my thought life or my thoughts  will take control if me.These are verses I am starting to meditate and seek God on.

Psalm 37:8 " Do not fret - it leads only to evil."

Luke 12:25-26" Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? "

Proverbs 12:25 "An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up."

Psalm 94:19 "When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul."

Psalm 139:23-24 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." 

Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. "



Sometimes I fell like Martha who is constantly worrying about everything instead of first laying down at the feet of Jesus.I am learning to put God first even in my thought life.To seek Him even when everything seems to be too overwhelming.When we are busy with God, He is busy fixing our messy lives.

Luke 10:41-42 "Martha, Martha, the Lord answered, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."