What Fruits Do We Bear?

Lately I have had a very bad attitude towards almost everything.And yes I do understand the importance of a a positive attitude,but its just became so easy to complain and be unhappy about everything.I asked God for stuff, He gave it to me,I realize its not all its cracked up to be and than I complain.I have lost my self in the attitude of the world and forgot to come and rest at Jesus' feet,to find my joy in His salvation and to let Him lead me in all my ways.

 Despite my bad attitude towards life of late, God has not failed to show up,because even when I am unfaithful he remains faithful (2 Timothy 2:13).He has kept my life together ,while I have been not only absent in mind, but absent in spirit,I have not shown up at the feet of God and marveled at who He is and what He has done.I have been in a long distance relationship with God for so long that at times I am not sure how to draw near to Him,to know Him once more,to seek Him.

I have not been bearing the fruits that comes through the Holy Spirit,because I have not been LISTENING to the Spirit in a long while.I realised all of  this just this morning, as I yet again slept through my alarm and only managed to spend five minutes with my Father,however that was all the time God needed to convict me of the path I am truly on and that for a long while I have been living in self deception.God took me to Galatians 5:22 and it dawned on me that I am not bearing one fruit of the Spirit.

It was both a shocking and painful revelation,but it truly opened my eyes to the root of a problem I never knew or simply denied I had.I have grown cold in my journey of faith and the signs were very evident.I have stop seeking,desiring,worshiping and needing God and therefore I have moved away from Him.

I have a tough journey before me,but God knew I would end up in this place long before I even fathomed it possible.And because He knew, He knows how to draw me back to Him.


I am embarking on a journey to connect once more with the love of my life and it is both scary and exciting!